I could have really hurt that girl. It could have been possible she would have broken her neck even. Then I could have went to jail. I would not have been able to live with myself if I would have hurt some one. I would not have been able to at all. I know that. I dont care if I get hurt one bit. I dont care if I die this very moment, but I do care about others and I just would not be able to stand being at fault for some one elses great physical pain or death... well I went to bed at 5pm tonihgt or somethign like that... I was going to work on my report but just did not feel like it because of what I did. It really took a lot of energy from me. So now I am going to be working all day today and tomorrow to get it done. I dont care that my mom is home I am not doing anything but that. If she starts getting bitchy I will tell her off and go to a friends house and work on it or something... I cant drive to a friends house but I have neough close ones still that would let me do that.... maybe Jeff could come pick me up to get me out of here... that would be nice.... yeah.. I would be going on my fate with lauren tonight... but that is now not hapening... damn I am still pissed about that... well nothing I can do now.... maybe we will be able to just hang out and watch a movei at my or her house some... If it is hers I dont know how I am getting ther but yeah... damn how can I do dates now... I am not going to do that whole parents drive you around crap. I mean I am 18 and no girl is going to want to go out with a guy that has no vehivle. I mean it does not have to be nive but most would want them to have one at least....

Simple Choices make Huge changes!

(I was going to stay and work at school on my report. I chose to work at home. I deal with me choice)