Could Be Better

I just dont knwo what to do. Why is it I meet great girl that live to far away from me. I mean I have met sever girls over the interenet that I would have a very very chanc eof gettting with and havinga great relationship... why are the jsut never close to me.... ok now on to the girl that is close to me.. I stil dont know what I think.. I mean I feel like I am an ass and I like am trying to hold it against her but at the same time I am yelling at myself to fuckng wake up she knows she screwed up and to jsut ask her out again before that chance really is gone.. hell not like there really is a chance anyways.. I dont.. Heck it isnot like she does  not know who she is or something.... whatever.. for now I will just stay lost and confused.... damn it.. I jsut am being ripped in so many directions and I really odnt know what to do anymroe... yep .. who knows.. Guess I will just go through my way I did before and jsut see what happens and unless something comes to me I dont go for it.. but that never worked.. never.. not even once... but yeah.. damn it.... bye