Could Be Better

Ok My new sn for Mindsay is BoboBegone . U have had it for a while and was going to keep it some what on the down low.. that did not really fall through. I ended tellimg most people that it was me so yeah I may as well tell every one that that is my new blog lol.. well see you all there.

ok I dont knwo what to do... to come back or not.... I dont think I have really a reason to come back anymore. I mean the people I was like wow I cant just leave these people I really can because I am not really a part of there lives anymore. I mean all I really need this for is to look at what they right. I really dont think anyone would care in the long wrong... I dont know..  well if I get enoguh reply's O may come back to this or I will use my other name to just look at peoples entries... So I guess it is up to you people. I doubt you people care but yeah whatever.... Night.

She is not the girl I grew to care about and love as a friend. She has changed... and not for the good. She drinks to much and seem to be getting her numbers to high in this amount of time. I am really sad to hear how she has changed. I had high hope for her future... not anymore. Maybe one day she will wake up and return to how she once was but I dont know. I am mean yes people change because of things but she did not have to go down the road she took. She is going and I belive has pasted the one she was following. I know she has when it comes to drinking. Even he drinks less then her. Her number are equal or just above his too. He was her first and only tell just this late last year.. and now look at her... I thought she was going to jsut have some fun, but she has gone past that now. I cant help her anymore. I dont even want to try. I almost never rever give up on people.. but I think I may have on her. I really cant think of anyone else off the top of my head I have... I know there are... but not at the moment... She has changed... and not for the best....

I just dont knwo what to do. Why is it I meet great girl that live to far away from me. I mean I have met sever girls over the interenet that I would have a very very chanc eof gettting with and havinga great relationship... why are the jsut never close to me.... ok now on to the girl that is close to me.. I stil dont know what I think.. I mean I feel like I am an ass and I like am trying to hold it against her but at the same time I am yelling at myself to fuckng wake up she knows she screwed up and to jsut ask her out again before that chance really is gone.. hell not like there really is a chance anyways.. I dont.. Heck it isnot like she does  not know who she is or something.... whatever.. for now I will just stay lost and confused.... damn it.. I jsut am being ripped in so many directions and I really odnt know what to do anymroe... yep .. who knows.. Guess I will just go through my way I did before and jsut see what happens and unless something comes to me I dont go for it.. but that never worked.. never.. not even once... but yeah.. damn it.... bye

My Body hurts from this weekned at drill. I loved getting smoked for the most part but damn I need to get in better shape... I am at work tell four and have to sit on a stiff chair that is not comfy all day and yeah... not to much fun.. and I cant even get a girl to give me a good rub down.. two reason. 1. dont have a girl to give me one and 2. I really cant get them... I have not had many that actually feel good. I am just wierd.. I either need it really really really hard for some areas but like a few cm left or right I will need it as soft as can be.... but whatever... ttyal